*No Mood *

My grandmother pass away...
When i recall back, I will cry...
I duno why...
At the surgery room, c the doctor to put stg to cover the mayat, I cry loudly...
haiz...so bad d feeling when somebody pass away...especially my lovely grandmother...
When c my mum cry so loudly, hug the grandmother n keep on saying mummy, I cry louder n louder...
Y God want take my grandmother away from us...
I dunno hw my mum nw...
She asks me go back to miri 1st...n she still stay at there...
I want stay wif her but she dun allow...she asks me come back to study...
When come back from Miri, my brothers ask about y grandmother will pass away suddenly...
I explain to them n cry again...
Yesterday i cry when taking my dinner...
I knoe my brothers all want cry out oledi but they tahan there...
They ask me go to rest n they help me finish doing the remaining house chores....
When on the way go back to miri, i think many n many...
I scare the feeling of my family members pass away from me again....
I scare one day my parents will pass away...I scare this kind of feeling...
I oledi mengalami one time oledi, I dun want again...I hate this kind of feeling...Really...Really hate....